what to blog?

i'm still trying to come up with things to blog about. why? let me explain a little bit.

• i have a life in the cyber world that is everything i can't do in real life. i share things here that i can't tell friends in real life. in real life i am a very straight laced parent. here i am slightly deviant. the cyber world is what keeps me sane and to some extent i think it probably keeps me out of jail.
• i want to be an exhibitionist in my own way. anonymous blogging helps get me there.
• i would like to pretend that my life is eventful enough to actually be able to keep a blog up and people interested enough to visit.

i know that those are shallow reasons. but can you honestly say that they are that much different than the reasons you have a blog?

i'm still trying

i haven't given up on the blog completely but it is still hard for me to find time to post. and if i find time, i have no clue what to write about.

since my last post i have become the target of a spammer that writes their posts in japanese, chinese, korean. not sure which language is used but i know i can't read any of it. so i am going to disable anonymous comments for a while. it isn't like anyone else ever comments.

so what has happened lately? i have met a woman on craigslist. we have exchanged a lot of email and we have even met once. our first face-to-face meeting ended up in bed having sex. we still email each other but it is still undecided if we will meet again.

i have found a new fixation. old style pin up art. i love the way the women are sensual and curvy. they frequently incorporate stockings and heels. anyone that has actually read this blog knows how much i like that. i have also found some newer variations but the old style still seem to be the best. vargas has no equal when it comes to this.

i am exploring the erotic comics but they tend to get a little weird. the enormous cocks, the monsters. not sure i like that and it is quite prevalent in them. but i'm still looking.

yes, it has been a while

my life is boring. i have started posts on multiple occasions only to delete them as being a miserable attempt at blogging. my life just doesn't have anything in it that is worth blogging about. but i am going to try.

the last few days i have been trolling craigslist personals. looking for something that would catch my attention. i replied to a few ads and even posted one or two of my own. if you have never posted a craigslist ad in the casual encounters section, you should do it once. just to see what kind of responses you get. for a man posting m4w ads, you get about 100 spam responses and another 100 responses trying to look like they aren't spam. it is obvious that they are spam because the text of the response has nothing to do with the ad you placed. (a tip if you do want to place an ad. ask the respondent to provide something in their response that shows them to be real and to actually read the ad. for example in one ad, i asked the respondent to tell me something to indicate their favorite local radio station. that ad led to the events of the next paragraph.)

however, i did get a couple of real people. the interesting part is that there are 2 women i am corresponding with that are looking for some "financial help" (read hooker). the sad part is that i'm actually considering trying to hook up with one of them. her prices seem reasonable. :)

still not dead

in fact, i'm feeling much better.

yeah, a monty python reference.

i have been very busy lately with my new job. i still haven't found a time to do the blogging thing. remember, i do this and do not want anyone i know to find out i do it. so it is hard to find a time. i can't do it at work because my new place of employment is one of those "open work areas" where no one has any privacy and everyone can see what you are doing. (so there is no way i can hnt surf or post). i am still trying to find a way to do this. i might have found a way to do it from my phone but that still doesn't make it easy to read blogs and anyone that has read my blog knows how i suck at writing one.

but i am still trying. so if you do actually look at this blog from time to time, don't give up on me yet. i'm still trying.

since it has been a while since i posted let me fill you in on what has happened in my life. i have a new job as i mentioned. i can't remember if i ever said what i do for a living. i test software. it is really not a bad job. i get paid to tell people that they messed up and then i get to sit back while they try to fix it. in the past 8 or so years, i have been in management. i really didn't like it but that is where i got stuck. however, in the last 6 months, i found a job where i am back as an "individual contributor" or grunt as everyone else sees us. i am no longer responsible for managing a group. i am just one of the people testing and being managed. i am loving it!!!! it is low stress and i'm good at it. i enjoy it. and the fact that i am happy at work has made me a better person all around.

as some of you will remember, i have a fetish for women in heels. well i am in f-ing heaven at work. the place is almost all women and they dress up every day. skirts, dresses and heels. it is a miracle that i don't walk around with a hard on all day.

so work is better and i am more relaxed. but guess what hasn't changed. my sex life. i still don't get it. actually i do but my wife and i had sex for the first time in 2 months last week. that is the average. about every 2 months we have sex. while i love my wife, 6 times a year isn't cutting it. i have to find someone and some way to have sex more often. if anyone has suggestions on how a mid-40's somewhat overweight guy can seduce a 20-30 something female into having sex with him in the freight elevator, please contact me. :)

this is probably the longest post i have ever done. if anyone actually reads it they might ask, where did you find the time to do it? well, the kids are in bed and my wife is out of town at a conference. this type of opportunity doesn't come along very often for me.

i am done for now. maybe i'll find a way to start doing this more often. i'd like to tell you about some of the women i work with. i'd like to get back in to tmi tuesday. and who knows, maybe i'll find a way to do a hnt post occasionally.

i just got paid for doing nothing

i got my first paycheck today at my new job. i have been here for 2 weeks and so far i have not done a damn thing. i work with 5 other people in a satellite group. the main group is located in nyc and all the management is there. the main group is in the final stages of a project and hasn't had time to do anything with us here. there are 3 of us in this group that have started within the last month. none of us have any current tasks or deliverables. it is getting pretty boring to do nothing all day. we are told that all of this will "change very soon".

interviews have been taking place to hire a manager for our location. when that happens it will change some things for us. but it will take a while for it to make a difference. any new manager will have to come up to speed and given the directions we have been getting from nyc, i don't think that will happen very quickly.

i think i am going to like working for this company. from what i have learned by talking to the people around, they all love this place. and almost everyone of the ~100 people at this location has said that it was slow to get integrated into the nyc group.

in the meantime let me share something i learned in my "spare time". many of you have email accounts with gmail.com. i found this article on the gmail blog that shows you how to use your gmail account in ways not available from other email providers. for example, ever wished you could easily tell which email was being sent by your lover in the mess of emails you get from your blog? i know a way. i would tell my lover to send me email at dareuu+lover.at.gmail.com. anything added to the email address with a plus sign (+) is basically ignored for the delivery but it is shown in the address. so then you set up a rule to filter on that email address. the article i referenced does a better job of explaining it. check it out if you have a gmail account.

oh, well back to trying to find something to do until it is time to go home.

i haven't abandoned the blog ...

i started a new job last week. no more games for me. but now i have to get settled into a new routine and find time to update the blog. at my old job i had a private office. now i sit in a workgroup cubicle setup. (i'm going to miss hnt).

i plan to come back to updating the blog, i just have to get into a routine again.

bear with me.

on the upside, from my new desk i get to sit and look at ~25 women. they dress up in skirts and heels frequently. if you have ever read my blog, you know why i'm so excited about that.

i'm not dead yet

really. i'm feeling much better now.

seriously, i am still alive and i have not abandoned the blog. i have been extremely busy. and i'm going to share a little about my real life. i've said that i work in the computer industry testing software. what i never really said (at least i don't think i did) is that the software i test are video games. i manage a team (currently numbering 15 people) that test for an digital entertainment company. we are currently building a couple of massively multiplayer online (mmo) games. one of them was recently released for beta. i don't want to put the link to the game site here because it would raise my blog up so that people here would find it. however, if you want to know more about it, leave me a comment or shoot me an email. my email is dareuu.at.gmail.com. i will say that the game is not your usual mmo. this is a game targeted at the 8-14 year old range. it is a kid's game that adults will enjoy. it isn't meant for the hardcore gamers. it is more of a casual game but some hardcore gamers have said how much they are enjoying playing it.

i hope to get back to blogging more often. and i also hope to get back to visiting blogs soon.

sorry for the smell

today is a rant, ramble and brain fart day

why is it that health nuts all push exercise as something that everyone should do? and insurance companies seem to incourage it too. but let me ask you these 2 questions.

• how many people do you know that have injured themselves why exercising?
  
• how many of those people sustained serious injuries?
  

now let me ask this question.

• how many people do you know that have injured themselves while sitting on the couch watching television?
  

just saying ...

and another thing.
disclaimer: this is going to sound racist to some but believe me. i am not a racist. end disclaimer

i am sick and tired of being politically correct. it isn't just political correctness regarding a persons race (as you are thinking because of the disclaimer). it is about everything. and i blame one segment of the united states population for all of today's policital correctness mess. (and here is where the racism could be construed). when the african-american [*cringe*] had their identity crisis in the sixties and seventies, political correctness began. now, don't get me wrong. i don't think anyone should be calling people derogatory names. i am not going to list any here because then my blog will get flagged and i'll start getting all kinds of hate mail. but because they did not want to become just plain "americans" we are now stuck with having to be politically correct. if a person has legal citizenship in the united states and uganda, i'd be more than happy to call them an ugandan-american. or if they have citizen ship in mexico and the united states, mexican-american fits perfectly. but if you only have one legal citizenship, then you can not be a -american. and i also believe that you should be required to specify which country you have citizenship in is your primary residence so that we can use it first, i.e. american-mexican. and this should be limited to countries. africa is not a country so there should not be any african-americans. similarly religion, sexual preference is not allowed.

and while i am worked up about the whole political correctness stuff let me lay this one on you. i am a hetero sexual, god believing, non-catholic, non-baptist, non-episcopalian, non-jewish, man. i like sports but am not fanatical about them. i like music, movies, cooking and books. i should be allowed to act like that. gay men get to act gay and if i say something about it, people start yelling "hater" or accusing me of being a bigot or guilty of hate crimes. but if i say something about not following the ncaa basketball tournament people question my "manlyness". if i compliment a lady on her clothing and say something like "a pair of gold slingbacks would really dress up that outfit" people start thinking i'm gay. i can't start yelling "hater" or "hate crime".

i am getting sick and tired of being the one that has to be careful about what i say and do so that everyone else will leave me alone. i want to be able to hassle someone that has dyslexia when they misspell something in a chat room. they get to make fun of me. i want to be able to say "oh girl" to a woman that is wearing white before easter. i want to be able to openly ogle a woman that walks by in a short skirt, low cut top and 5-inch spike heels. i want to be myself.

wtf thursday

ok, so not really a wtf. more like comments on wtf wednesday.

i realize that large does not exclude lingerie. believe me when i say that i have bought plenty of it. the issue is that she isn't comfortable with her body and doesn't want to wear it. and the bi-polar doesn't help with that. so buying her lingerie just makes her depressed side of the "polar" flare up.

bunny's first suggestion is a great one. however, i do that all the time. i do actually listen and give her things that she wants but i do it because i love her, not because it is a holiday. so doing something like that as a valentine's day gift is anticlimatic.

renee's suggestion of gift cards is a great idea but not for us. i encourage my wife to shop for things. if there is something she wants, she gets it. i do the same thing. we are good about that. we buy things for each other too. so if i find something i want her to have, i buy it and vice versa. we even do it with the kids, within reason that is. so giving her something so that she can buy what she wants is again anticlamtic. (btw, to illustrate this, on average there are 4 packages a week that arrive at our house from woman within, lane bryant, roaman's, etc. i'm beginning to think that we have our delivery driver.)

so tonight, my wife is going to work out just like she normally does on thursday nights. this is a treat for her because she gets away from everyone 2 nights a week and gets out frustrations. then she will come home and spend a couple of hours in the bathtub. it will be a typical thursday night. that is what she said she wanted.

it is february?!?!

it is february 4, 2008. i just got off the phone. i was scheduling an appointment to have someone come to my house in the morning and repair my air conditioning. why am i getting my air conditioning fixed on february 5th? because it is 80+ degrees outside and we need it! yes, on february 4th, when the rest of the country is cold, those of us in texas are having a freeking heatwave! i know, i know. some of you are saying "must be nice". but i think it would be nice to have snow occasionally. we get about 1 week of winter each year. sometimes it gets old being able to wear shorts year round.

so, go ahead and tell me how lucky i am in your comment. but if you do, tell me what the weather is like where you are at so i can live vicariously through you.

i live

i'm still alive. december became a nightmare at work and home. my wife finally got the diagnosis she was regretting. the doc says she is bi-polar. it had to happen. her mom is a clinically diagnosed manic-depressive. her dad is clinically depressed. but what made december fun was that the doc decided to change her meds. it is not fun spending christmas holiday with a bi-polar wife that is trying to get off of one med and on to another. add on top of that the mandatory overtime i had to work to meet a milestone. and how can i forget the visits from dad-in-law and mom-in-law. thank god they didn't come at the same time!

but i'm back and hopefully can get back on track blogging, tmi'ing, and hnt'ing.

c, 1100100, 64, 144

all of the entries in the title are geek for 100. this is my 100th post. you would think it would be special. guess not. the tmi for today just didn't appeal to me. and i have been extremely busy at work lately so i haven't had a lot of time to post. so you are going to get a few rambling paragraphs from me today.

what makes a good cook? last week's tmi asked how good a cook we thought we are. i said 9.5 out of 10. it isn't because i'm a gourmet. it is because everything i have ever made was edible and at least one person enjoyed it. i might not use exotic sauces or ingredients, but i make food that is edible, filling and damn tasty. so i consider myself a damn good cook.

i added a couple of brain farts to the side bar.

when i was a kid i looked forward to christmas. now i dread it. i hate the way that it has become so commercialized and all about the gifts. i'm not going to get all religious on you but the reason for the season has been lost. and i honestly don't mind the whole gift giving thing but it has become such a hassle to get "the right" gift. and no one wants simple gifts anymore. honestly, as a kid i used to like getting a few new shirts. now, kids don't want anything that doesn't need batteries or a monthly payment to keep it working.

now, back to the title. can anyone identify the 4 number systems used?


UPDATE: 12/13/2007: roman numerals, binary (base 2), hexadecimal (base 16), octal (base 8)

busy

i've been busy and i ain't had time to write. (i just had to, vixen).

i'll try to get something up this week beside tmi. and i'm going to do my best to participate in hnt. i'm finding that if i have something like those, it is easier for me to post. because if i have to come up with stuff out of my life to post, it doesn't happen.

i'm trying to come up with a set of questions to submit for tmi. i've sent in a few one-off questions but they have never been used. so i'm hoping that if i do a complete set, they might actually look at them. :)

more later if i can come up with something.

more important than halloween

yes, today is halloween. happy halloween everyone.

but more important than halloween. today is the birthday of a man that changed music forever. he opened doors for performers that only dreamed of doing what he did. he changed a music genre and it will never be the same.

today is the 40th birthday of vanilla ice.

rambling

i had 2 new employees start today. i hate trying to train a new employee. but i hate having to do the work that they should be doing more. so i will moan and groan my way through training them.

nudity sure draws a crowd. even half nudity. i posted my first hnt. in 3 days i had more visitors/comments to this blog than i had in all of the past days it has been up. my first post went up on 5/15/06. granted there hasn't been much to see here but i didn't think that one pic would generate that much traffic. now i guess i'll have to do another pic just so i can see what happens next.

sidebar

i added a list to my sidebar. i know that nothing on the list will actually do much for a fat lazy person but it will help to get them moving. that is my problem. i'm a fat lazy person. i'm trying to make myself quit taking the easy way for everything. so these are a few things i have started to do. if it helps someone else, then great. but it is mainly for me. i think about it, i put it on the list, i start doing it. it makes me feel better.

and we all know that it's all about me. right?

i feel the love

thanks for all the comments on my hnt post. to be honest i have wanted to play for a while but i didn't know what picture to take. and as i've said before i am still a little nervous about someone i know finding my blog. but with all of the encouragement i will try to do more.

this is where you come in. if you did come back to read this, i could use some suggestions on pics for hnt. i've admitted that i don't visit other men's blogs to see their pics so i don't know what everyone else does. and to be honest i really don't care what other men do. i'd prefer to do pics that will be something the women want to see. so, ladies tell me what you want to see and i'll try to fulfill some requests. and if you email me, i might even send you a personal pic if i can find time to take them.

btw, those are one of my favorite pair of underwear. they have lots of lycra so they stay in place. women complain about their undies bunching in their ass. well, guys that wear boxers or boxer briefs have issues with them bunching up in the crotch. the ones i'm wearing in the pic don't do that. want some for your guys? i get them at walmart and they come in multiple colors. but the white ones are a little bit see through. not sure if you could tell in the pic but in person, you can actually see through them.

and now for a little shameless self promotion: i wasn't fully erect in that pic. :)

evens and starts

get it? last post was odds and ends. sometimes i crack me up. lol

ok, so it wasn't that funny. it seemed much funnier in my head.

home with a sick kid(again). not much to say. but like i said previously i'm trying to get better at this blogging thing. and that means posting more often.

maybe later in the day i'll come up with something to say and post again.

btw, does anyone notice that i keep adding to the brain farts list on the side?

definition

i recently commented on some one's blog that i had a blog crush. hopefully i didn't scare her and it would be great if she actually read this post.

i have different degrees with which i rate my desires to read people's blogs. i'll start by admitting that i don't read many blogs by men. in fact, i'm don't think i read any blogs by men. but i digress. i have 4 degrees of fascination with blogs. i list them with definitions:

• blog voyeur: these are blogs i visit frequently. i read the posts. i look at the pictures. but i never comment on the blog and i'll never reference them from my blog. i have no connection to the author, i just like the content.
• blog stalking: these blogs i visit frequently. i read the post. i look at the pictures. i visit blogs/sites that are referenced. i try to get an idea who the person is that is maintaining the blog. again, i don't comment and i never refer to them in my blog. there is no connection to the author just a perverse interest.
• blog lust: these blogs i visit every day. i read the posts. i look at the pictures. i look at the pictures some more. i read the posts. i fantasize about being part of their lives. yes, these are usually blogs that relate their sex lives and post revealing pictures of themselves. i might mention them in my blog. occasionally i'll leave a comment but only if i think it might influence them to put something else up. the connection i have with the author is superficial at best.
• blog crush: these blogs are the ones i visit daily. i read the posts. i look at the pictures. i leave comments. i feel like i can relate to these people. these are the people that i wish i knew in real life because we seem to have things in common. i try to leave meaningful comments. these are the people that i wish would visit my blog. these blogs are the type that i hope mine will become.

so there you have it. my blog rating system. so if you ever see a comment from D on your site you can now try to determine the type of interest i have in your blog. as i say in my banner, i can not be held accountable for any emotions you have. i promise that i will never be rude on your site, so please afford me the same courtesy.

ramblings...again

remember this girl? she has done to me again. i am a leg man. today she has on a casual faded denim miniskirt. i'm getting absolutely nothing done today.