fine line between genius and stupidity

i know that oscar levant said "there is a fine line between genius and insanity" but that doesn't apply here. i work with a bunch of people that can be genius one second and stupid as a wet roll of toilet paper the next. it is frustrating as hell!!!! how can someone be able to talk technical terms and subject matter in such detail only to turn right around and say the stupidest thing about how a user would want to do something.

i work in software development as a quality assurance analyst. it is my job to understand what the user wants or would do, then validate that the developer understands it and builds the functionality correct. it amazes me how some of the most brilliant developers can not understand how a user would want to do things. even if we have the user standing in front of them explaining, they don't understand. they hear a single sentence and fixate on it. they listen to what the user says and hear what they want to hear, not what they user is saying. they frequently say "that isn't what the user wanted" even if i am directly quoting the user!

have you ever used software and asked yourself the question "what were they thinking?". well, i can answer that question. they were thinking that you don't really know what you want so they are going to give you what you really want. after all, you are only the person that uses the software. how would you know what you want it to do?

so the next time you are tempted to submit an idea for product enhancements via a web forum or email, let me help you out. don't waste your time. no one really reads it nor do they really care what you have to say. you will get what they want to give you regardless of whether you want it or not.

i can't go to titty bars anymore

i can not bring myself to go to a gentlemen's club aka topless club aka titty bar. i used to like to go there and do the typical guy thing of imagining that i actually had a chance of getting one of the "college students" to go home with me. but lately, i can't do it. i think it is because all of the "college students" are now young enough to be my daughter and i just feel like a very creepy old man.

it sucks getting old

not all women but real close

the last couple of post brought a comment from a reader. to answer her comment, yes i do work with a lot of women. the ratio is somewhere around 3-4 women for each man. now that is not something i'll complain about. especially when they are mostly young women. this is the first job for a lot of them after they graduated from college. not all of them are that way but a great deal of them are.

this is new for me. working in computer software, i usually work with a lot of guys. there just aren't many women in the software development world. but this job is slightly different. i am still working in software development. but i am working on product used by this company and not software that is sold to the rest of the world. so the development organization is not the predominant organization so there are fewer of us.

i like this job. i am not in management so i don't have to deal with all the politics. i work on projects but i am working in an area where i am usually the only one working on my portion. as long as i get my work done, everyone leaves me alone. i like that.

ok, gotta run. try to post more next week.

sitting at my desk - part 2

angry - she almost always has a pissed off look on her face.  not sure why but that is her.  she has a pretty smile when she does smile.

 

glare - i call her glare because this woman has the whitest skin i have ever seen.  she must never go outside in the sunshine.  she is really nice looking but i have to wear my sunglasses to look at her when she wears a skirt.  (i live in the south where women very seldom wear hose/stockings.)  she is petite and shapely for a small woman.  and she likes to wear tall heels. 

 

milf - i do not know for a fact that she is a "m" but i do know that the "ilf" fits.  i know that is crude but if the shoe fits...  i think she is older than most of the ladies within my line of sight but she is definitely one of the sexiest.  don't know exactly why, though.  she is attractive.  she isn't anorexic thin. she has a nice body, nice shape, awesome legs.  she doesn't flaunt anything.  she is just sexy.

 

lacy - i chose this name carefully and i'll explain why in a minute.  she is asian.  she is young.  she is hot.  smoking body, dyamite smile.  fabulous legs.  but she earned her name "lacy" because of a particular pair of shoes she wears.  i overheard her talking to some of the other women about the shoes.  they could not believe she wears them.  she explained they were comfortable and that her boyfriend is 6'4" so she likes the height.  ok, the shoes are 6" heels with a 2-3" platform.  i have never seen these shoes on any ladies feet except for strippers.  and "lacy" sounds like a legit stripper name. 

 

smiles - she is pretty.  she is nice.  she is ... teeth.  ever known one of those people that had teeth that seemed too big for their face?  the ones that don't even have to smile and all you can see is teeth.  she is one.  it isn't that she is ugly.  it's just that i can't look at her without seeing teeth. 

 

wonder woman - she is our receptionist/assistant office manager.  she is a natural beauty.  hot body.  gorgeous legs.  beautiful face.  she is about 6" tall and she likes to wear heels.  so why "wonder woman"?  because of the amazon reference, of course.  come on, you should have gotten that one.  (/shakes head)

 

 

ok, enough of the list for now.  i might do more later.

 

i posted a craig's list personal ad the other day.  more because i was bored than anything.  i got 5 responses and 4 of them were from spambots.  the ad said i was looking for a potential friend with benefits (fwb).  one lady responded that she would like to know more about it and wanted to email a few times before we ever tried to meet.  since i had put that in my ad, i thought it was a good idea.  the next day she responds that "this was a mistake".  what was she doing reading craig's list personals and more specifically, why respond to them?  it isn't like she accidently did it.  i responded to her to keep my email address and get in touch if she changed her mind.  i also stated that i would be happy to be an anonymous pen pal because there is obviously a dark side of her that wants to surface and as most bloggers know, it is easier to do that with anonymous people than to do it with people you see face-to-face.  i hope she does respond back to me.

 

now for the ladies (or should say the lady) that might read this, help me out especially if you have ever read/posted a craig's list ad.  what makes you respond to an ad.  what makes it seem safe and legit for you?  leave a comment if you feel the urge.

sitting at my desk

i'm sitting at my desk waiting on someone to fix an issue so that i can actually do work.  right now i am completely blocked from doing anything that this company pays me to do.   but as long as they see me writing an email, they will think that i am doing something productive. 

 

as i sit at my desk, i thought i'd put together a list of alias for the women.  not sure if anyone reading this will care but it keeps me occupied.

 

red - can you guess what color of hair she has?  she is an attractive woman and i have a distinct feeling that she knows it.  she isn't one of those women that flaunts it but there is something about the way she acts that leads me to believe she has this "i'm hot and i know it" thought running through her head.  she does have great legs though and i am always thankful for that.

 

stilts - not because of long legs but because she always wears heels and not short ones either.  i think the shortest heels i have seen her wear are 3.5 inches.  her typical shoes are a pair of black pumps with 4" heels.  while i like this, i wish she had better legs.  she is too skinny.  i like women with curves.  she is thin...too thin.

 

polly - for polly anna.  she just looks innocent all the time.  but she is also a really attractive woman!  nice figure (with curves), shapely legs, nice cleavage and she likes to show it.  i like polly.  i wish she sat closer and i had a better view.  she has the sweetest smile.

 

ll - stands for "legs and lips".  she has fabulous legs and the most sensual lips.  she sits directly behind stilts and catty corner from me.  i have a direct view of her legs all day and i am grateful. she likes to wear high heels also but on occasion she will come in flats.  

 

tdc - stands for "too damn cute".  ever known one of those people that are just so cute all you want to do is cuddle?  this girl is the one.  of course cuddling might lead to something else but this one would start with some cuddling.  she is attractive but not what you would call a stunning beauty. 

 

doe - have you ever heard the expression "doe in the headlights"?  this girl always has that look on her face.  but damn is she nice looking.  not beautiful but stunning.  she has a great body and dresses to emphasize her legs, ass and breasts.   which happen to be her best assets.  :)

 

 

that is part of the run down.  there are others but i'll get to them later. 

 

now that i've listed a few of the ladies i work with, i have to ask a question for anyone that will answer it.  how does an "older gentlemen" know if younger ladies find him attractive?  i am so out of practice that i don't know if i am imagining some flirting or if it is really happening.  tdc is constantly looking up and smiling at me.  she was the first of the women to talk to me and she has always been friendly.  but it could be just that...being friendly.   there are others that could be flirting as well but i'm really am not sure.  god i feel old.

 

and there are a few of these women that give me the same feeling i get when i go to a strip club.  like i am old enough to be their dad.  some of these ladies have just graduated from college and this is their first job.  hell, i graduated from college before some of them started high school.  talk about feeling like a dirty old man.  :(

 

 

still not dead

in fact, i'm feeling much better.

yeah, a monty python reference.

i have been very busy lately with my new job. i still haven't found a time to do the blogging thing. remember, i do this and do not want anyone i know to find out i do it. so it is hard to find a time. i can't do it at work because my new place of employment is one of those "open work areas" where no one has any privacy and everyone can see what you are doing. (so there is no way i can hnt surf or post). i am still trying to find a way to do this. i might have found a way to do it from my phone but that still doesn't make it easy to read blogs and anyone that has read my blog knows how i suck at writing one.

but i am still trying. so if you do actually look at this blog from time to time, don't give up on me yet. i'm still trying.

since it has been a while since i posted let me fill you in on what has happened in my life. i have a new job as i mentioned. i can't remember if i ever said what i do for a living. i test software. it is really not a bad job. i get paid to tell people that they messed up and then i get to sit back while they try to fix it. in the past 8 or so years, i have been in management. i really didn't like it but that is where i got stuck. however, in the last 6 months, i found a job where i am back as an "individual contributor" or grunt as everyone else sees us. i am no longer responsible for managing a group. i am just one of the people testing and being managed. i am loving it!!!! it is low stress and i'm good at it. i enjoy it. and the fact that i am happy at work has made me a better person all around.

as some of you will remember, i have a fetish for women in heels. well i am in f-ing heaven at work. the place is almost all women and they dress up every day. skirts, dresses and heels. it is a miracle that i don't walk around with a hard on all day.

so work is better and i am more relaxed. but guess what hasn't changed. my sex life. i still don't get it. actually i do but my wife and i had sex for the first time in 2 months last week. that is the average. about every 2 months we have sex. while i love my wife, 6 times a year isn't cutting it. i have to find someone and some way to have sex more often. if anyone has suggestions on how a mid-40's somewhat overweight guy can seduce a 20-30 something female into having sex with him in the freight elevator, please contact me. :)

this is probably the longest post i have ever done. if anyone actually reads it they might ask, where did you find the time to do it? well, the kids are in bed and my wife is out of town at a conference. this type of opportunity doesn't come along very often for me.

i am done for now. maybe i'll find a way to start doing this more often. i'd like to tell you about some of the women i work with. i'd like to get back in to tmi tuesday. and who knows, maybe i'll find a way to do a hnt post occasionally.

i just got paid for doing nothing

i got my first paycheck today at my new job. i have been here for 2 weeks and so far i have not done a damn thing. i work with 5 other people in a satellite group. the main group is located in nyc and all the management is there. the main group is in the final stages of a project and hasn't had time to do anything with us here. there are 3 of us in this group that have started within the last month. none of us have any current tasks or deliverables. it is getting pretty boring to do nothing all day. we are told that all of this will "change very soon".

interviews have been taking place to hire a manager for our location. when that happens it will change some things for us. but it will take a while for it to make a difference. any new manager will have to come up to speed and given the directions we have been getting from nyc, i don't think that will happen very quickly.

i think i am going to like working for this company. from what i have learned by talking to the people around, they all love this place. and almost everyone of the ~100 people at this location has said that it was slow to get integrated into the nyc group.

in the meantime let me share something i learned in my "spare time". many of you have email accounts with gmail.com. i found this article on the gmail blog that shows you how to use your gmail account in ways not available from other email providers. for example, ever wished you could easily tell which email was being sent by your lover in the mess of emails you get from your blog? i know a way. i would tell my lover to send me email at dareuu+lover.at.gmail.com. anything added to the email address with a plus sign (+) is basically ignored for the delivery but it is shown in the address. so then you set up a rule to filter on that email address. the article i referenced does a better job of explaining it. check it out if you have a gmail account.

oh, well back to trying to find something to do until it is time to go home.

i haven't abandoned the blog ...

i started a new job last week. no more games for me. but now i have to get settled into a new routine and find time to update the blog. at my old job i had a private office. now i sit in a workgroup cubicle setup. (i'm going to miss hnt).

i plan to come back to updating the blog, i just have to get into a routine again.

bear with me.

on the upside, from my new desk i get to sit and look at ~25 women. they dress up in skirts and heels frequently. if you have ever read my blog, you know why i'm so excited about that.

i'm not dead, just been busy

i haven't abandoned the blog, i've just been too busy to do any posting. my current job has had me working long days and weekends too. but all of that is about to change!!!

i accepted a new job today. less hours, less responsibility and more money. how sweet is that?!?!? and when i say "less responsibility" that is not a bad thing. my current job has a lot of responsibility but none of the authority. i have the title of manager here but none of the authority to make any managerial decisions. just the responsibility to take the blame when something goes wrong. my new job has no managerial responsibility. i am going to be an individual contributor again! i'm actually looking forward to it. and like i said, they are paying me more to do the individual contributor job than these people pay me to be a "manager".

btw, i haven't told my current employer yet. you get the news before they do. i will be telling them the news later today, closer to quitting time. :) wish me luck

i'm not dead yet

really. i'm feeling much better now.

seriously, i am still alive and i have not abandoned the blog. i have been extremely busy. and i'm going to share a little about my real life. i've said that i work in the computer industry testing software. what i never really said (at least i don't think i did) is that the software i test are video games. i manage a team (currently numbering 15 people) that test for an digital entertainment company. we are currently building a couple of massively multiplayer online (mmo) games. one of them was recently released for beta. i don't want to put the link to the game site here because it would raise my blog up so that people here would find it. however, if you want to know more about it, leave me a comment or shoot me an email. my email is dareuu.at.gmail.com. i will say that the game is not your usual mmo. this is a game targeted at the 8-14 year old range. it is a kid's game that adults will enjoy. it isn't meant for the hardcore gamers. it is more of a casual game but some hardcore gamers have said how much they are enjoying playing it.

i hope to get back to blogging more often. and i also hope to get back to visiting blogs soon.

wtf wednesday

wtf

... makes people think it is automatically ok to shorten a person's name? for example, if my name was robert (it's not) and i introduce myself that way, why do people think it is ok to start calling me bob? i have one of those names and it drives me crazy. i hate the shortened version of my name! but everyone wants to call me that and when i correct them it makes me look snooty. take that into consideration when you meet new people. if they introduce themselves with their full formal name, call them by that name until they say you can use something else.

... do i have to do to make my employees understand that sucking up to me does not impress me?!?! i don't want minute by minute updates. i don't want to approve everything you do. i don't want to check your work. i want you to do the job i hired you to do so that i don't have to do it for you. the less i hear from you or about you from others, the happier i am to be your boss. that means you are doing your job correctly. yes, i've told them this. yes, i've even put it into email for them to keep and refer back to. but they still insist on wanting me to approve, review, inspect everything that they do!?! if i had wanted to do their work, i would not have hired them. take some f-ing initiative and responsibility and leave your bosses alone!!!

excuse me while i complain

i work with a lot of pompous, irresponsible, unprofessional, inconsiderate, spoiled idiots that have no concept of doing a good job.

i hate having to do other people's jobs. i can not understand how people can be proud of doing a half ass job and not feeling ashamed when others have to fix their mistakes. it really pisses me off. granted, my job in software testing is all about pointing out the mistakes that others make. but i am not supposed to fix those mistakes. it is up to them to fix them and i test it. that is where the checks and balances come in. hell if i am supposed to find and fix the problem, it would be faster and cheaper to just let me do the work in the first place!!!

and to make matters worse, my bosses expect me to tell them when things are not working correctly. the premise is that i know when things are working as they should. so how would i know that? design documents is the standard issue. but in this place that doesn't apply. most of the stuff is just "built". and any design documentation that does exist is outdated or just plain wrong. so i can't tell anyone that their product is working properly. all i can say is "this doesn't seem right". about the only definitive issue i can report is when the product crashes, which by the way happens way too much.

i get tired of ....

well, i just get tired.

i live

i'm still alive. december became a nightmare at work and home. my wife finally got the diagnosis she was regretting. the doc says she is bi-polar. it had to happen. her mom is a clinically diagnosed manic-depressive. her dad is clinically depressed. but what made december fun was that the doc decided to change her meds. it is not fun spending christmas holiday with a bi-polar wife that is trying to get off of one med and on to another. add on top of that the mandatory overtime i had to work to meet a milestone. and how can i forget the visits from dad-in-law and mom-in-law. thank god they didn't come at the same time!

but i'm back and hopefully can get back on track blogging, tmi'ing, and hnt'ing.

i'm still alive

i'm still alive, i'm just really busy. thanksgiving week was full of illness. i had a cold. my son had strep throat. my pc had a virus. it really sucked.

now i'm back at work and trying to make up for taking a week off. i'll get back to posting soon.

i want to be alone and other stuff

i recently lost my private office and had to move into a shared office. it is a long story of a company growing faster than expected. and in order to actually have enough space for my staff to do their work and still have some room to expand my staff a little, i made the sacrifice. i now share an office with 2 of my employees. it isn't bad because it is easier to talk about the work stuff that we need to. but it really sucks when i try to surf hnt sites while i eat my lunch. i want to be alone.

s4s went out of town for a work conference last friday. so i took a day off work and spent the day with the kids. they hated it. apparently i won't let them get away with everything that my s4s does. not that she lets them get away with a lot, but it seems that i'm a bigger hard ass. go figure. also add to it that they didn't have school but all their friends did and it made it even more boring.

i need to explain something in the last paragraph. s4s is a teacher at a small private school and my kids to go school there. since the staff was all out of town at the conference, the kids had a day off.

and now back to the regular rant...

i have had this desire to go to a strip club lately. i don't do that very often. i'm 43 and old enough to be some of the dancer's grandfather. so it kind of weirds me out sometimes. but about once a year, i get the desire to go to a club, find some nubile hot ass chick and pay their electric bill that month by shoving bills into their g-string as they rub their ass against my crotch. i'm getting that generous feeling. sure wish there was a cheaper way to get some ass (that isn't my wife's) rubbed against my crotch. :( any ladies reading want to help me out, shoot me an email so we can discuss it. you can find my email in a couple of the posting here.

ok, ranted enough.

women at work

i posted a while back that i had a new job. i like my new job but there is one thing about my old job i miss. the women. this job is in an office that is basically all men. there are only 5 women total. the old job, the women would dress a little more upscale and i got to watch legs and asses sway on high heels. here, it is extremely casual and i don't get to see that anymore. for a leg man with a heels festish, this is hard. but then the women here aren't the kind you would want to see in short skirts and heels.

there is only one woman here that i might fantasize about. a redhead. what is it about redheads? she is way too skinny for my tastes but then i can't stop myself from peeking over the monitor when she walks by. she has a sexy smile and long red hair. she is petite and really skinny, but then i'd love to explore her body with my hands and lips. not sure why but she really gets to me.

a new job

i never posted that i got a new job. i no longer work at the place with all the women. in fact i now work with a place that is mostly men. there is a total of 3 women in about 80 people that work here. that is about the only thing i hate about this job. the rest is great.

i am working for an online gaming company. this place is so politically incorrect. it is fantastic. i'll post more about the job later.

i miss the high heels and legs though.

Codenames

as i posted before, there are some very nice looking women that work with me. so that i can start posting more about them and some of the fantasies i have about them, i'm going to post a list of codenames that will be used to refer to them.

climber - i call her this because she is definitely focused on climbing the corporate ladder. but i'm focused on her lower body. she wears heels almost everyday, has fantastic firm calf muscles and the tighest ass. she strikes me as the dominant type as you will see from some of my fantasies.

mom - i know that sounds sick to some of you but truth is she is one mom i'd love to fuck! she is not the model type but she is high on my list. she is sweet, has eyes that you can lose yourself in, nice hourglass figure and great legs. she is short and i have never seen her in heels less than 3" high. she has a denim skirt that buttons all the way up the front that she wears with the bottom 3-4 buttons undone. men, if you like that sexy glimpse of thigh, then you would love this woman.

ndn - she is the newest member to my fantasy crew. petite, fit and totally professional. but she likes to wear sweaters and shirts that fit tight and have a low neckline. her breasts are pert and the cleveage shots she gives are nice. and she wears heels a lot as well.

3 amigos - these are 3 women are seen together frequently. all 3 of them are hot in their own ways. ba has a great body, always wears at least 3" heels and dresses in a way that is professional but proves that there is a hot sexy body underneath. she is the owner of the green thong i posted about previously. sultry voice, nicely proportioned breasts, and erection provoking legs. ca has long curly hair, hourglass figure, breasts that beg to be touched and a mouth that has inspired more than one fantasy. and yes, she wears heels frequently which helps to accentuate her ass. sa is model beautiful but more approachable. she is the one i know least of all but i have ogled her from afar for a while now. there is nothing that stands out about her, she is just a beautiful complete package. but she fits the criteria because she only wears flats about once every couple of weeks.

that is enough for now. i might add a couple of more to the group in the future but for now, i need to wrap this up.

Green thong

last wednesday i was trying to wrap up a couple of things at work before heading out for the holiday. One of the projects that i am working on has a very attractive project manager. i've told you about the "women in heels" here and she is one of them. as part of the wrap up, i went to her desk to give her a status of my work on the project. she does not have a side chair at her desk so most people just stand beside or sit on the end of her desk. as i am there talking to her, she slides down and slouches in her chair as she types on her computer. as she does this, her shirt slips out from where she had it tucked into her pants just a little bit. but that little bit is enough to show me a very pretty green lace thong. pair this with the 3.5 inch heels she was wearing and i get very close to a sexual harassment suit.

as much as i hate the job i have to do here, i love the women that i am working with. i think for my next post i'll give some pseudonyms to the women in heels so that anyone that might be reading this can follow along over time.