yep, drugs are a good thing

it must be the drugs because not only did we have sex last night but she was the one that initiated it.

drugs can be a wonderful thing

prescription drugs. remember my recently diagnosed bi-polar wife? she stopped me on the way out of the house this morning and said she wanted to have sex with me tonight. either the drugs are kicking in or she is on the top "polar" of the bi-polar rollercoaster. the only question is whether she will still be that way tonight.

i live

i'm still alive. december became a nightmare at work and home. my wife finally got the diagnosis she was regretting. the doc says she is bi-polar. it had to happen. her mom is a clinically diagnosed manic-depressive. her dad is clinically depressed. but what made december fun was that the doc decided to change her meds. it is not fun spending christmas holiday with a bi-polar wife that is trying to get off of one med and on to another. add on top of that the mandatory overtime i had to work to meet a milestone. and how can i forget the visits from dad-in-law and mom-in-law. thank god they didn't come at the same time!

but i'm back and hopefully can get back on track blogging, tmi'ing, and hnt'ing.

rant

why is it that most people that blog and have significant others all seem to complain about the same things? don't get me wrong, i'm including myself in this and not complaining about it. i get comfort from knowing that i'm not the only one married to a schizophrenic, split personality, sex adverse, selfish spouse. (from here on i will refer to them as s4s). i love my s4s but it gets really tiring and not at all rewarding. occasionally it would be nice if s4s would try to think of me first and not as a by-product of herself.

for example, last night s4s comes into the kitchen as i'm getting dinner ready (yes i do most of the cooking) and says "you know, if you want me to fix you a lunch in the mornings, just say so". if it had been left at that i would have thought how nice it was that she thought of me. but no...she continued. "it would be no problem for me to fix you the same thing i am putting together for me." again, i'm a by product of herself. forget about the times i go out of my way to pick up things specifically for her. forget about the times that i come home and deal with feeding the kids, finishing their homework and getting them in bed while she decides to soak in the bathtub for 2.5 hours. just once i want to be the reason she does something and not a participant/side effect of what she does.

is that asking too much?